Heya, sorry about yesterdays post, it was..heat of the moment anger, lol.
Actually, had a good day yesterday after the arguement, went round Micks, and then Sams. At Micks we played this nifty little game called Articulate which I am particularly crap at because I don't know general knowledge, nor am I good at explaining things. LOL @ Peen's explanation of tree- a "big growing thing". Anyway yeah, I think our team won! Then we moooved onto Sam's house (Mick and Sam live next door), talked for a while in the kitchen...but, I dunno, I felt really out of place. It was a weird sort of feeling, being surrounded by mates and feeling like that. So I just sat in the living room watching music channels until I broke the TV (again! grr, it always freezes when I wanna watch it!). Then Sam came and joined me and awww, it was sweet. Didn't get home until about quarter to one, Peen slept at mine afterwards.
There is soo much I wanna say, but really it's best to be kept between me and him at the moment. Don't feel so comfortable writing in on here at the moment.
Anyway, now, have nothing to say! Meh!
OOOOOH, apart from I have the sexiest new shoosies EVER! Dunlop Greenflash trainers, they are soo sexy, wooo!

God, I am SO angry.
Why are breakups so difficult? Why does he always have to go on about killing himself, or him wanting me to hate him, or hurting my friends if that will make me hate him.
We are only freakin 16 years old. Why do things have to get so deep? I hate all of this.
Just fuck off.

Just been looking through Yahoo Search, found lots of news articles regarding Michael. Most of it is horrible lies, and especially that new Smoking Gun article. Makes me sick.
I'm scared. Whether Michael Jackson is found guilty or not, he is going to have a hard life. If he's found guilty; he doesn't necessarily have to be guilty of the CRIME, many innocent people are imprisoned every day, then he'll go to prison and that will be the end of him. How could he possibly stand to be in prison? Away from his children? Away from everyday norms? If he's 'found guilty', people will automatically say "yeah..he's definitely guilty...shoot the son of a bitch".
In my heart, I believe he is innocent. I don't know Michael, I don't personally know anyone that DOES..but being a fan and all, I think we know a lot more about him than the general public. The public don't hear about his charity efforts or his humanitarianism. All they hear now is the way he looks, "oh LOOK his nose is falling off!" (one of the, possibly, lamest jokes I have ever heard). Because he looks weird, because his "skin colour has changed", does that make him guilty of sexual molestation? I think not. 'Weird' people (what's normal?) should have just the same amount of respect as anyone else. Innocent until proven guilty, I say.
Missing the point here. I, as a fan, feel I know Michael better than the average Joe Blog. If Michael is found guilty, I will STILL not believe he is in my heart. As I said, innocent people are imprisoned everyday. It is not until I see evidence to my satisfaction, that I will believe he is guilty. But if he's found innocent, people will say "oh he got away with it again". Michael can't win either way.
There are consequences to this case too. Say Michael is found innocent (which I pray to god he will, it's SLIGHTLY hard to find a jury that are unbiased towards Michael Jackson). Imagine all of the hundreds of thousands of children that ARE being molested right now. It'll knock their confidence by ten. A publicised trial, a 'guilty' man of sexual molestation..found innocent. Those children will not have the confidence to cry for help. Many children are not being believed, not being listened to, even now.
I pray to god Michael Jackson is found innocent, but I can't help but feel saddened at what might happen if he is.

I suck. Sociology exam today, and I completely crapped it up. It's my own fault though, I should have revised ages ago but didn't. Must go now too, to revise for Psychology exam tomorrow. Have to learn 19 Key Studies on random people on Cognitive, plus all of Developmental stuff and BLEH. Brain is hurting.
The even more annoying thing is, we have lessons too. LESSONS! Sooo..3 lessons this morning...took period 4 off to have dinner, and then at dinner we had the exam.
Meh, I will shut up now, am going round the bend.

Feeling sad. Is there ever a time when someone makes you feel like shit, even though they didn't mean to? I just look in the mirror and think "god, you are sad" =( Argh, bad day today. Stress of exams in two days, trynna cram in lots of revision and alas, remembering nothing and feeling like a complete spacker. *sigh*
I need a holiday. Or a stress reliever. Gym? Yes!

Happy New Year! A new year, a new start! It's time to get a few things in my life organised. Time to get a job, to learn to drive and to pass my exams. Wonder if I'll achieve any of those. Hmm. Definitely not my exams, have three in...8 days. And am going to fail miserably as I have been lazy and have not revised yet. Darn.
Anyway, New Year! Was great fun =) Went down to a log cabin in Kinver, with about 25 other people, my friends Sam, Christine and Mick, they're families, and friends etc etc.
Played Man Hunt in the dark in the woods, listenened to Jack try and convince us that the log cabin was built on an ancient Indian burial ground and someone called Taco was going to come and kill Steven, watching one of the kid's Dad losing his cool and stropping at all of us when he found that we had nicked all the bunk beds and his son hadn't got one, dancing around the bonfire to Saturday Night, the Macarena and DJ Casper, drinking half a bottle of neat Martini and not even getting in the least bit tipsy, losing Christine several times, the beeeeeeees (argh!), the emergency light that kept us up ALL night, the morning after eating bacon, egg, sausage and bean sandwiches, sitting outside the log cabin..just on my own..looking out at the woods.. feeling content, helping myself to the lovely hot spicy chilli, getting one and half hours sleep, hearing Jack farting all night and stinking the whole upstairs of the cabin out, Dan's snoring ALL night (grr), banging my head many many times 'cause the ceiling on the top bunk was too low, trying to get changed in my sleeping bag (difficult you must understand!), Christine not being able to sweep up lol, talking to Steven and Sam outside =), and the hhuuuUUUUge roll of toilet paper (wtf?! lmao).

Great night =)